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This is just to push off the old journal and try and be a bit more social. However I don't have any facebook, twitter or tumblr accounts.  Just these - PSN: Spencer347, Wii U id: Spence, 3DS friend code: 0946-3274-0919, steam id: Mr. Moderate.

Games currently playing: Shadowrun: Dragonfall-Director's cut, Animal Crossing New Leaf, Splatoon.

Really this is just a list of goals I intend to accomplish within the next two years.

1) Get a place of my own.

2) Be better about socializing, talk more with people I like.

3) Graduate from college and get my A+ certification then start on my bachelor's.

4)  Take a vacation and visit a friend I haven't seen in some time.

5)  Come out to the family about being bisexual and finding a partner whose company I will enjoy.

Admittedly that last one is frankly will be the most difficult aside from the socializing given my anxiety issues.  I know it's rather odd coming out at thirty though I've honestly felt like a coward for hiding for over a decade and a half.  Regardless of whether or not I accomplish everything on this list, I'll at least have a peace of mind with clearing most of these.  I'm just too damned tired of being angry and bitter about short sighted idiocy and toxic relationships and a change of pace is needed.  One day I'll look into meditation or something similar to calm my nerves.

    I should start with apologizing to anyone still watching this account, truth be told I've yet to really write anything or take any new photos I feel are good enough to share.  The truth is school has been my first priority followed by the job I had.  I've been going back on financial aid and made it a point to bring in A's for each semester which thankfully I've done and intend to continue for the next few as I'll be going back full time.  As for my job as a cashier I've resigned from it, put in my two weeks on black Friday and I don't regret doing so though I do find it funny five other people left around the same time with three of them being managers.  These days though I'm just a horrible recluse given I've no idea how to be social anymore.

     I've saved up some money and will be job hunting starting with the work study program, hopefully I can get into a library job or something similar.  As for writing truth be told I'm rather scatterbrained about it, I mean I have profiles written down and certainly I know how the characters look and act in my head, I just don't know how to put that into words at least not in a way I'd like.  Especially considering these are characters that have been running around in my head for over a decade, one of them being a female samurai who's gay.  I hope to get her story on paper one day, even if it means going to a writing course first.  For anyone who reads this I hope the coming year is good to you and that the holidays are enjoyable.

I'm old but not dead.  I apologize for anyone looking for something worthwhile here, I do not have have anything I would consider worthwhile to post.  At this point in time still working a dead end job in retail while going to school for an associate's in applied computer science.  If you're really intent on saying hello to an odd recluse you're welcome to do so via steam: Mr. Moderate or on 3DS via friend code: 0946-3274-0919.

Things are better at work these days and in regards to the car while the problem hasn't been completely fixed I am getting there.  I refuse to be bested by this and have it ruin my plans. At some point within the next couple weeks I intend to write and put up some short stories that have been bouncing around in my head.  I'm not the greatest writer but I want to take a chance with this regardless of how badly it can end.